crosssmyheart:

You know that feeling you get when you start crushing on someone? When they get online, you get all happy whenever they text you, you feel the butterflies in your stomach. Little by little, everything they do is amazing. They could say the dumbest thing and it will mean the world to you. Sooner or later, that crush grows into a little more. You want to talk to them all day and all night. You hope to wake up to a goodmorning message that will lighten up your whole day. When you hang out with this person, nobody else really matters. Every second you spend with them is important. Even if you’re just hanging out at home. Then it’s the first kiss. That’s when you know things are real. When they grab your face, look you in the eyes, smirk, and then just go in for it. It could either be perfect or the worst kiss ever. That kiss will give you chills down your spine. It will give you this sensation you’ll never want to let go of. Things start to get more serious. You start hanging out atleast once a week. Eventually, they become the more important person in your life. Everything in your life finally starts to make sense. You now have a purpose to wake up in the morning and live your life. Then, slowly but surely… Things start to change. They stop calling you at night, they stop texting you goodmorning, they even stop wanting to hang out with you. Little by little, you start noticing these changes and you start asking questions like “are you okay?” “is something wrong?” “why have you been acting so distant?” They simply say everything is fine because they don’t want to hurt your feelings with the truth but in all honesty, that hurts more than the harsh truth. Things stay weird and as more time goes by, it’s as if they don’t even like you anymore. You decide to ask one final time and they finally tell you they are fed up with your shit.Things end. You are now stuck between crying of sadness or punching a wall out of anger. Tears slowly start to build ip and you start crying. You feel like your world just crumbled into a million pieces by the one person that lifted your spirits up so damn high. It’s 3 days later and you’re still crying yourself to sleep. They are all that crosses your mind. Nothing else is important anymore. Everything you believed in, yeah, that’s down the drain. Everyone knows you’re sad but nobody knows how to help. They say “you deserve better” “they aren’t even worth it” but to you, that person was your world. They meant everything to you. Next, you look for a rebound. You start talking about the new person but they are still in the back of your mind. You try to make this new relationship identical to the old one. The one you were so happy and comfortable in. Things start to go wrong with the new person and you honestly don’t feel like dealing with problems so, you drop them. At the end of the day, you end up lonelier than you were before. The only thing you can do now is wait. Time heals all. And as you get older, you realize that. You realize that someone will come along and make you happy again.

You know that feeling you get when you start crushing on someone? When they get online, you get all happy whenever they text you, you feel the butterflies in your stomach. Little by little, everything they do is amazing. They could say the dumbest thing and it will mean the world to you. Sooner or later, that crush grows into a little more. You want to talk to them all day and all night. You hope to wake up to a goodmorning message that will lighten up your whole day. When you hang out with this person, nobody else really matters. Every second you spend with them is important. Even if you’re just hanging out at home. Then it’s the first kiss. That’s when you know things are real. When they grab your face, look you in the eyes, smirk, and then just go in for it. It could either be perfect or the worst kiss ever. That kiss will give you chills down your spine. It will give you this sensation you’ll never want to let go of. Things start to get more serious. You start hanging out atleast once a week. Eventually, they become the more important person in your life. Everything in your life finally starts to make sense. You now have a purpose to wake up in the morning and live your life. Then, slowly but surely… Things start to change. They stop calling you at night, they stop texting you goodmorning, they even stop wanting to hang out with you. Little by little, you start noticing these changes and you start asking questions like “are you okay?” “is something wrong?” “why have you been acting so distant?” They simply say everything is fine because they don’t want to hurt your feelings with the truth but in all honesty, that hurts more than the harsh truth. Things stay weird and as more time goes by, it’s as if they don’t even like you anymore. You decide to ask one final time and they finally tell you they are fed up with your shit.Things end. You are now stuck between crying of sadness or punching a wall out of anger. Tears slowly start to build ip and you start crying. You feel like your world just crumbled into a million pieces by the one person that lifted your spirits up so damn high. It’s 3 days later and you’re still crying yourself to sleep. They are all that crosses your mind. Nothing else is important anymore. Everything you believed in, yeah, that’s down the drain. Everyone knows you’re sad but nobody knows how to help. They say “you deserve better” “they aren’t even worth it” but to you, that person was your world. They meant everything to you. Next, you look for a rebound. You start talking about the new person but they are still in the back of your mind. You try to make this new relationship identical to the old one. The one you were so happy and comfortable in. Things start to go wrong with the new person and you honestly don’t feel like dealing with problems so, you drop them. At the end of the day, you end up lonelier than you were before. The only thing you can do now is wait. Time heals all. And as you get older, you realize that. You realize that someone will come along and make you happy again.

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love love love love it.

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but, nobody has really caught my attention lately. I am not head over heels for anyone and I’m not about to go looking for it. I miss the whole being cute with someone. I miss talking on the phone at night with that one person who means the most to me. I want it all over again. It’s just that nobody is worth it. So for now I’m stuck being single and lonely.

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Sometimes I wish I could get everything I wanted. How awesome would it be if everything came a lot easier? What if there was no competition? That would be great. Unfortunately life is nothing like that. EVERYTHING is competition and hard to get. Just for once, I wish I could get what I wanted…

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I’m not sure if you reading my private tumblr was such a good idea… But, I guess now nothing is a secret anymore. Feeling relieved and a bit confused. Oh wellllllllllllllll. Fuck it. Nothing can possibly get worse, only better.

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You made such an impact in my life. Why did you leave?

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